When it comes to girls...

...listening to God can become be so hard...

I don't ever think i can trust my perception of what God wants when i have crush on a girl or i'm trying to figure out what to do with a relationship.

I get quite afraid of God's anwser when i ask about that stuff, because i just don't want Him to say no...ha! I'm becoming impatient about finding a help/worshipmate and i'm only 18! I guess that is where i need to learn to wait on God.

So dealing with this has gotten me thinking about marriage and the union of a man and a woman. I'm not talking sexual, or civil unions but spiritual. Though spiritual union bleeds into both i think that one of the most wonderful things about marriage is worshiping God together. I can't wait to worship God alongside my wife. efrgdkfmngkirsg! It just gets me stoked.

Its something about having your relationship so centered around Jesus that makes me excited.

I find myself becoming more attrachted to a woman's relationship with God and character than her looks. Now, looks are great sure, but i guess i just can't connect with a girl unless she is connected with Christ. I'm not looking for perfection, but for intention. I want a girl that DESIRES to be close to God.